Teardrops of the Poor

by: Rufo-Tigs Tidalgo

It was Wednesday afternoon and a beautiful day. The domestic scene was typical of rural Butuan. We had a meeting with barrio folks to implement a livelihood pilot project financed by a Canadian charity foundation. With presupposed knowledge of the meeting, about two hundred people came. The unexpected attendance compelled us to use the Catholic chapel instead, rather than the prearranged barangay hall.

The atmosphere was festive. All seats were taken. There were people standing outside. The event was remarkable. They were toying with the idea that this meeting may help shape their destiny. This gave me discomfort. Gazing at the people who came in, I noticed that they were the poorest of the poor. They were mostly barefooted and some were wearing worn out clothes. They exemplified peasant stratum of rural society.

There was absolute silence when I went to the podium. I shared my thoughts. In that moment, I could have my best moment in public speaking. I failed. My emotion shrouded my speech.

I looked down from the podium and sensed their expectation. They listened to every word I said with fervent hope that it meant something to ease out their suffering. It was the most difficult speech I ever delivered. My mind wondered why these things happened. In a place so green and verdant where a seed thrown to the soil grew freely, I can't justify any reason why the barrio people hardly had three square meals a day. It was ironic and even illogical.

What makes the people of the rural areas to deserve this kind of hardship eludes my thinking. They are hard working people and therefore indolence is not the cause. Their livelihood is from mother earth hence blame could be in the governance of agricultural.

One local official said that there had been so many government pilot projects in his barangay. He continued saying that few more of these pilots and they could already fly. He meant it literally in sarcasm.

I was born and raised with these kinds of people. My whole world was the barrio and I thought then that all people on the planet lived the same as myself. There was no benchmark for comparison. I spent my boyhood years happily and contented being unaware of what went on outside my little sphere of comfort.

But time changes. The barrio I knew is no longer the same. The city is rapidly encroaching into the farmland. The once serene and isolated little hamlet is now an adjoining part of a polluted city. It is not an isolated case. It's about the same throughout. Factories, piggeries and chicken poultries cause tremendous ruin to the environment. Infestation of flies and other carriers of disease from these establishments rampantly pester the inhabitants. It's no longer a good place to stay let alone to raise families.

It is difficult to talk about enmities of the barrio without dragging the issues of the city. The administration of the city has been continually afflicted with bad vision. Looking it from the hindsight attests that it has been going haywire and at times harmful.

We used to go hunting paddling a baroto around the swamp at the mouth of the big river. This was a unique place created into being by centuries of natural evolution. During high tide, some parts of the swamp were under water that we could navigate around under thick canopy of swamp vegetation. The presence of wildlife was quite abundant. It was a big area. The beauty and size of this can be compared to the present Bayou of Louisiana. Through blatant insanity, the swamp was allowed to be demolished, destroyed, totally obliterated to give way to series of ponds to raise shrimps.

Remember those big banga palm trees at Guingona Park? These has been standing tall and proud for generations. They chopped them all down and replaced it by planting little trees. This again exemplified the kind of shortsightedness the city had in the management of our environment. Butuan has a population close to half a million people, yet it has only one peony little park. It is not a good way to define progress.

The third largest river of the country runs through the city. Yet, water supply source is by installing series of huge pumps sucking out underground water east of the river. This has been going on for a number of years that it is already dangerously compromising the underground water level. When we add up bottling companies, factories in Taguibo and neighboring places, commercial piggeries and chicken poultries, which all use underground water of their own, plus continuos drilling of wells for domestic barrio usage, the foreseeable future is catastrophic.

This area is not far from the sea and when the water level caused by this method is lower than sea level, a reversed underground flow may eventually take place and sea water rushes inland. Imagine the consequences to agriculture and drinking water of the people in Tiniwisan, Cabcabon, Bobon, Ampayon and localities nearby.

There is little we can do but hope that sobriety somehow would eventually come to the minds of those that fashion our destiny. However, taking a glimpse on past performances prevent us to be highly optimistic.

Back in that barrio chapel a decision had to be made on the list of possible recipients. Balanced with the available budget of the foundation, only seventy-five families would be considered. Local recommendation was not accommodated fully. It was indeed a difficult dilemma. Families were ranked according to basic needs as food, clothing and shelter. I felt numbed on those who were excluded. They too had barely three meals a day. I craved for better economy.

My heart sank as I watched people that were not chosen. They sadly went out the chapel and walked home disappointed. I talked to some and extended my regrets. They politely accepted. But it did not lighten up my feelings. I felt so helpless as they gained distance away from the chapel. I knew that in the privacy of their thoughts, they shed in anguish painful teardrops of the poor.

Merry Christmas.